PoLiX

He wrote and composed that for my wife and me as our wedding gift.

Since only Audrey and Swift can see my facebook... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LgM0dQiqwxE

Well, she's got family here at the house staying right now, so on here a bit. He left a note, yes sketter. It said he didn't want any of that, and had a quote from the Door's The End. Nothing more.

My condolences (sp?) to you robert. I am so sorry for your loss man. ----------------------------------- It is a long story as to what happened and I've typed out the whole thing twice now and deleted it. I think this is short enough. He tried commiting suicide. He tried doing it in a way he hoped he'd be long gone by the time anyone found him. His roommates busted his door down after finding it locked and seeing him on the ground through his window. They 1st told us it was a coma and self-inflicted wounds. We later found the wounds had nothing to do with it. He had overdosed himself on insulin, and dropped his blood sugar to 0. This starved his brain of sugar, which is like starving it of oxygen. 90% of his brain died, only the cerebellum was still somewhat alive. So of course he retained his breathing, heart, etc. Though he couldn't really breathe on his own. His parents made the hard decision of pulling life support, as they knew he wouldn't want to live as a vegetable. A lot of his family got to see him before he passed last night. Sadly I was trying my ass off to get his youngest sister home. She is visiting a friend in Texas, and their parents bought her ticket home, but they are illegals and didn't have enough money to get one soon. So I am working with the airlines (who have been amazing with information, even though sadly they went through a travel agency to get the price, and they can't do much, but giving me all the info I need), and waiting on a stupid travel support center who opens at 8am PST, but it is 930am PST and I keep getting a recording. It has been a hard few days as I am sure you could imagine. Lots of questions, lots of feeling of helplessness, and lots of crying. But my wife is... doing better? She cried less last night when she found out than she has in a while. Though I think for most of us, it was partially being glad his suffering was finally over. We watched a few funny videos, and a friend of hers came over at 1am and they looked at our wedding photos and talked, she also knew him. He didn't want a Funeral, a Memorial, or a Grave... So we fealt laughing was a good way to be. But I'm gonna get back to dealing with the sister's ticket. I'm going back to work Monday, but may not be active here for a bit longer. Want to spend every minute together with her for a while for obvious reasons. Bye for now.

I'm not. It's my wife's brother. So it is just hard seeing her and doing everything I can to be there for her.

I can't type about it without choking up, so not even going to try. But something very bad happened today, and yeah. Realize how many people love and care about you, and no matter how worthless life seems like living, you'll hurt more people you truly still care about than you could ever imagine. Never have too much pride to ask for help, and to seek help. It isn't worth the pain and suffering you'll put the people you love and care about, and all those who know you through.

Yeah, it gets about 200k hits a month last I had checked. But that was before zones like TW and Chaos added it. And yes Sama. Before widening it to show the centering of it, it had about 40 pixels to each side to fix in a 1024x768 browser. I had Game News as News, but it was mentioned if it was to replace the current, it might confuse people visiting another website. Maybe have Why Download instead of Continuum? or something.

Well, nothing between the latest and the original changed. So dunno what to tell you there. The only thing I did between that one and this one was rename some images, as the layout was completely the same. So sounds more like your browser changed, or some setting changed on your browser to cause it as I can't recall anyone else complaining of this issue. Actually can't even recall yourself complaining of the issue. ------------------------ I thought about removing the ? but most people thought it looked fine. I had the logo and search box aligned to the sides, but it made everything seem really out of place. Hard to describe, but the menu really just didn't stand out/looked like it was meant to be aligned to one side or the other, but someone didn't do it right. The logo was meant to look kind of cheesy. I wanted something that would actually stand out. I went through quite a few versions, and for some reason that font and color just stood out with the lanc. The only change request I got from people in game was to have the option to turn off certain menu items if it is to replace the general nav bar. Which many thought it should. So may implement that feature. Also since Priit got our hopes up on the scores site, yet again, and then has not done anything since again, would remove that one for now.

http://polix.ssgn.net/v3.png Zones will open a drop down menu with a list of zones. Both SSC and Non-SSC will be listed. Should give a more upfront menu for people to see and click on. May also have Support as a drop down, and Downloads. Thoughts? Opinions?

So you did stupid shit as a kid, and can't just live and move on. If you'd talk to people, you might realize this is more than common. It is widely known that children learn sexual gratification and exploit it unmeaningfully. Friend of my wife's daughter would play with herself when she was 2 years old, and continued for a while. Buddy of mine joked he would stick his dick in a vacuum hose whenever his mom wasn't looking. When we we're like 3 and 4, my cousin and I would get naked and touch each other, and she even had me stick stuff inside of her. It is common. It has nothing to do with being male or female. And it does not mean you are fucked up in the head in any way shape or form. The fact you can't move on and forget, and think it is something so wrong is your problem. It is in our nature to do anything gratifying, no matter how wrong. You're 19. You're out of high school. Fuck cliches, fuck everything, make something of yourself. Be yourself, cause trust me, there are hundreds of people just like you. I can think of quite a few people I know who fit your same persona of depression. Rather than admitting they are depressed and trying to get help, they cover it up and blame it on other issues, and then deny being depressed and grasp onto minor things that make them happy and make them seem huge. That or they take something that makes them seem semi-happy, and make it sound like it is the best thing ever. And maybe to them it might be, because they feel so down otherwise. I had someone close to me become so depressive he had posted online he didn't want to live anymore. But you couldn't tell it by looking at him. Because he just sucked it up. But he blamed his depression on stupid things, and just hid himself away and didn't get help. Well, finally his family made him seek help, and he did. And he became a lot better person for it. He got married, has a kid, a good job, a new house, graduated from college, everything. I am excited for him, though I don't think he'd ever realize it. Take a few mins of your damn time, and talk to someone. You don't always need drugs. Just someone to talk to, and someone who might actually give you a different view of things. Or maybe help point you in the right direction. A shrink is the best way to start, as they do it from a medical stand point. But they won't always prescribe drugs. Don't become like the 54yr old man I work with who hates his life, blames all his problems on something else, and can't realize his own attitude and actions are what have caused all of his problems. He has heart problems - he probably weighs 300 lbs; He has back problems - He sits on a hard stool all day, bent over a machine; He has breathing problems - he smokes probably a pack a day; And it goes on and on... Wife, Money, Health, everything. All he does is complain about it, and never goes and gets any help for any of it. And he always blames it on someone or something else. Never admits he is the one causing his problems by not doing anything. So rather than blaming all of your problems on stupid shit, go talk to someone and try to figure out the real root problem.

MM. Now searching on the internet seems the Blu-ray issue is about as common as the RROD. Atleast the RROD you can fix by buying a fan accessorie to pull more heat out of the xbox, or just keep it on top of something and clean of dust. That and they did finally fix it with the new version. Seems Sony has acknowledged the flaw in the PS3 through support tickets, but can't find anything publicly acknowledging the issue. Maybe someone else might run into one. So seems even though XBOX has its flaws, so does PS3. Sucks, MAG does look like an awesome game.

The PS3's Blu-ray drive has flaws. So if you only play games, and rarely watch blu-ray movies you'll be fine. Buddy of mine has gone through 5 PS3s already, and another is on his 2nd and its having some issues. Haven't looked into how common it is, but seeing as 2 people are having the same issue, possibly something common. 360 I have yet to have a RROD, but a few friends have. And even the hell they've gone through, they still get XBOX over PS3. So its just by your personal choice. Its like the old Nintendo vs Sega battle. All preference.

Actually has me debating building a computer (have had a laptop for almost 3yrs) just so I can play it on higher settings. Haha.

http://www.metacafe.com/watch/400298/how_to_lightsaber_effect_video_tutorial/ Actually pretty simple to make, interesting.

Will set it to 600x120 Have to set it group by group, so will get to it tomorrow after work. Been a busy week.

Just wanted to note for future people who see this and wonder the same question. Last login on the name he was requesting, was March of 2001. Thanks to registration data/computer info matching on 2 of his aliases, we were able to restore it. Keep this in mind when creating accounts in the future.

In 1 month, SSForum (now Forums.SSGN.Net) will celebrate 8 years as the central forums for this game. They have lasted a long time, and I hope they will go further. Sadly the population of both the game, and these forums has dwindled from their former glory, but the diehards keep things alive and going. To the members and staff who have been here since the beginning, I thank you. To those who have not, but still give a lot of time and effort to the site, I thank you also. A little over 5 years ago, I was asked to come back and take the reign over the sites I had once ran, but gave up. It had been 2years, and a lot had gone downhill between feuds, zones creating their own sites, and Swift not having the time to dedicate so making most things static. I've tried to change that, and will continue to try to. But don't lose hope if you see progress slowing down. It just means either behind the scenes things are going on, or my staff is trying to give me another kick in the butt to keep going, and keep pressing on. These sites belong to the community, and have always been driven by the community. So for as long as this community exists, so will these sites. Enjoy them, take them for what they are, and try to give your thoughts/input/efforts where you can. I can always use the help of people willing to work, not just those willing to give ideas. Thanks for the good times of the past, and cheers to the many to come.

http://ssc.ssgn.net/lostpassword/ Fill out a ticket there.

Moving to correct forum... And what you said is a no brainer. No offense, but people get divorced because they drift apart. And the divorce rate of the past would have been higher if not for 2 reasons: Higher percentage of religious people, and lack of Woman's rights. Most woman got use to the idea that they got married, had kids, and then their husband would have mistresses (normally if wealthy, not always). It wasn't uncommon for centuries that wealthy men had children with multiple women. It is was flushed out a lot of the drains of society. A woman didn't have to settle for a poor man and life if she could attract the attention of a rich man. And even better if the man was married, she didn't have to have any of the same responsibilities as his wife did. On top of that, you had a lot more die hard religious people than you do now a days. Ones who followed the guidelines of the church more strictly. Hell, they even ran off and built a country based on the treatment they felt they were being given. Granted later it would be written that other reasons also played a part, but this was at the heart of it. Less of these men ever divorced, cheated, or had mistresses, as they believed that it was wrong as by their book. Funny we were just talking about this at work yesterday and the subject comes up again here. But most the woman brought up the point of Woman's rights. And agreed when I threw in about the normal way of marriage with mistresses. Communication does play a role, but it is other changes in society. Top that with a media making the divorce rate sound thousands of times bigger than it really is thanks to construed data, and many people having multiple divorces and being tracked as a single divorce each time (I know one girl who I work with who is 22 and has been divorced 3x already). But a divorce rate of 5 per 1000 people is still bad, but not EVERYONE's parents are divorced. I know probably 10x less people who's parents are divorced than people who's aren't. Heck, can only name maybe 4 off the top of my head, and 2 are brother and sister, so really 3 sets.

http://books.google.com/books?id=3aUMamjxVpMC&lpg=PA55&dq=SubSpace%20Online%20Game&pg=PA55#v=onepage&q=SubSpace%20Online%20Game&f=false - Popular Science 1997 Was also in Newsweek in 1996 if any can get scan of that. Also know we were in Gamepro at one point, and IGN has reviewed SS a few times. Just a hint to links before I go crash

As SSGN staff know, I am planning to create a huge section for players to submit links to SubSpace reviews in magazines, on websites, and on television. Well, to kind of kick it off, I figured it might be nice to have a few links. I found an old link in my e-mail and it kind of kick started the idea in my brain again. http://books.google.com/books?id=9gEAAAAAMBAJ&lpg=PA56&as_pt=MAGAZINES&pg=PA56 SubSpace in Maximum PC - November 2001

To help promote events around SubSpace, and help get word out about SSGN.net, it was decided we will be teaming up with zones to offer prizes for winning events. Typically a small cash prize with a nice little gift included. Just something to spice up the competition, get more players involved, and help zones promote their events to players from other zones. Last MoC it was decided SSGN would offer $20 and a SS Hat to the winner of the next MoC, and the Staff were very accepting and interested in it. Today during Chaos's Master of Chaos we had our first trial run and first winner, Deathonline. He took the SS Hat, but put the $20 on the line for the next Master of Chaos event winner. It was a very fun event, and players from all over the game stopped by to play, creating a very good turn out. Both SSGN and Chaos benefited from the promotion as we had a chance to see if the idea was worth trying, and Chaos had quite a few players in pub practicing and preparing for the MoC Event. There will be a small break as we work to decide future prizes, and begin working with zones to team up and work on which events would be best to promote. But expect to see atleast 2 prized events a month, and some very cool SS Novelty prizes being offered up.

$20 and a SS Hat Prize is being sponsored by SSGN.net So come on out and try to win it! 1 Hour and Counting.

As with any Trade In, they clean it, test it runs good, and then seal it and sell it. So no doubt there will be some very cheap pre-owneds soon.

It was a huge trade in offer I wish I had jumped on sooner. But then again, hearing that some people may not get an Xbox until October now makes it not so bad. I'd assume MS is probably pretty mad at Gamestop though as I am sure they backed their order line up even more than normal, and the holiday season is coming soon. http://www.examiner.com/examiner/x-28759-Atlanta-Video-Game-News-Examiner~y2010m6d26-GameStop-tradein-deal-for-Xbox-360-Slim-is-dead-no-longer-taking-preorders