Seriously. Even after reading this whole thread I'm still skeptical that you know what you are doing. If you think this is a problem with testosterone, go see an endocrinologist and he/she  will give you a full hormone report if you request it. Don't think to yourself that you're a machine in which only logic and reason make up your decisions. You're a human that becomes enveloped in emotion when facing difficulties. That's absolutely normal, and should be followed with genuine inquiry and advisement.   If you really consider yourself more mature than others your age, even when you were younger, how would this maturity affect you if you were suddenly given a baby to hold as courtesy? If your close friend had a serious problem because he/she cheated on his/her long-term partner? Would you have enough human emotion to accept and enjoy holding a baby and realizing the purity of young ones? Would you have enough courage and respect to help and coach your close friend through his/her possibly traumatic experience?    From what you've expressed in this thread, I can tell it would be difficult for you to do a lot of things that require maturity on a more practical (and real) level than from what you make yourself to be. Sure logic and reason can influence sound decisions, but a degree of emotion is always present that made you think of making a decision in the first place.   If you can't connect to what I'm saying, I'm saying get real counseling first from the endocrinologist who will dispell your testosterone theory, and then from a psychiatrist. They really do help. In fact, they are the basis of this research you do over the Internet. Don't reason yourself out of this one. You owe it to both your curiosity and your sanity.