Projects On Hold

[PoLiX]

I can't type about it without choking up, so not even going to try.

 

But something very bad happened today, and yeah.

 

Realize how many people love and care about you, and no matter how worthless life seems like living, you'll hurt more people you truly still care about than you could ever imagine. Never have too much pride to ask for help, and to seek help. It isn't worth the pain and suffering you'll put the people you love and care about, and all those who know you through.

[Cheese]

sucks dude, who was it? Edited August 16, 2010 by Cheese

[Corey]

hey dude, i know you cant compare things that suck that much, but ive been to 8 funerals by the age of 16, and now my uncle has liver cancer, i feel you man, stay stong...

[flared]

condolences

[L.C.]

Realize how many people love and care about you, and no matter how worthless life seems like living, you'll hurt more people you truly still care about than you could ever imagine. Never have too much pride to ask for help, and to seek help. It isn't worth the pain and suffering you'll put the people you love and care about, and all those who know you through.

Will have to write this down somewhere (like my book bookmark).

[»Xog]

Take care Polix.

[Audry]

Sorry to hear that... I hope everything is fine.

[Emit]

After 100 years the whole populous of human race changes over.

[Hakaku]

Sucks, but don't let it drag your world down.

[PoLiX]

I'm not.

 

It's my wife's brother. So it is just hard seeing her and doing everything I can to be there for her.

[Avast]

I've thought about it a lot.

 

I suppose the more your mind is set on dying, the more likely it will happen.

 

But there are just too many people that would be happy if i died

 

So i stay alive to spite them. lol

 

And anyway we all die eventually, its just a matter of when and how..

 

Its our mortality that defines us, its part of the truth of our existence..

 

Someone once told me time is a predator that stalks us

 

But id rather believe that time is a companion, that goes with us on every journey, reminds us to cherish every moment, because it will never come again, what we leave behind is not as important as how we've lived.. after all we are only mortal..

 

Death is that state in which one only exists in the memory of others; which is why it is not an end. No goodbyes, only good memories.

[»T-Man]

Sorry for your loss. I know it is tough. They say it is easier over time, which I hope is true, Because I just lost my brother last week too, so I am there with ya.

[PoLiX]

My condolences (sp?) to you robert. I am so sorry for your loss man.

 

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It is a long story as to what happened and I've typed out the whole thing twice now and deleted it. I think this is short enough.

 

He tried commiting suicide. He tried doing it in a way he hoped he'd be long gone by the time anyone found him. His roommates busted his door down after finding it locked and seeing him on the ground through his window. They 1st told us it was a coma and self-inflicted wounds.

 

We later found the wounds had nothing to do with it. He had overdosed himself on insulin, and dropped his blood sugar to 0. This starved his brain of sugar, which is like starving it of oxygen. 90% of his brain died, only the cerebellum was still somewhat alive. So of course he retained his breathing, heart, etc. Though he couldn't really breathe on his own. His parents made the hard decision of pulling life support, as they knew he wouldn't want to live as a vegetable.

 

A lot of his family got to see him before he passed last night. Sadly I was trying my ass off to get his youngest sister home. She is visiting a friend in Texas, and their parents bought her ticket home, but they are illegals and didn't have enough money to get one soon. So I am working with the airlines (who have been amazing with information, even though sadly they went through a travel agency to get the price, and they can't do much, but giving me all the info I need), and waiting on a stupid travel support center who opens at 8am PST, but it is 930am PST and I keep getting a recording.

 

It has been a hard few days as I am sure you could imagine. Lots of questions, lots of feeling of helplessness, and lots of crying. But my wife is... doing better? She cried less last night when she found out than she has in a while. Though I think for most of us, it was partially being glad his suffering was finally over. We watched a few funny videos, and a friend of hers came over at 1am and they looked at our wedding photos and talked, she also knew him. He didn't want a Funeral, a Memorial, or a Grave... So we fealt laughing was a good way to be.

 

But I'm gonna get back to dealing with the sister's ticket. I'm going back to work Monday, but may not be active here for a bit longer. Want to spend every minute together with her for a while for obvious reasons.

 

Bye for now.

[Bak]

Sorry.

[Sketter]

He didn't want a Funeral, a Memorial, or a Grave...

 

He left a note?

Not to be insensitive just trying to understand.

[»Purge]

That's an incredible story, Polix. I wish the best of condolences to you and your wife's family.

 

Don't worry about SS while you take off, it'll be fine. After all, Samapico is here.

[PoLiX]

Well, she's got family here at the house staying right now, so on here a bit.

 

He left a note, yes sketter. It said he didn't want any of that, and had a quote from the Door's The End. Nothing more.

[Samapico]

After all, Samapico is here.

[Corey]

wow dude, im so sorry to hear all of that. Im going to be going through a hard time soon, my uncle who had liver cancer... well i just found out today that the cancer has spread to his kidnees, and there is nothing the docters can do. He is starting to turn yellow, and its so hard to think of this, I cant imagine what your going through though. My uncle is really close to my family, and he is a great musician, I think i might get a music staff tattoo of one of the lines from eleanor rigby on my back, but im not sure yet. My condolances, and i wish you and your wife the best. Take it slow.

[PoLiX]

Since only Audrey and Swift can see my facebook...

 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LgM0dQiqwxE

[L.C.]

+1 at the tunes. Very relaxing and soothing.

[PoLiX]

He wrote and composed that for my wife and me as our wedding gift.

[»Maverick]

wow Polix, I'm sorry for your (and your wife's) loss. My condolences and sympathies.

 

Such moments in life you realize how special life can be and how bad it can be at the same time.